Fear

Ok, so I haven't actually shared my blog with ANYONE because I'm a little scared of it so for now it's just for me. I don't really have the time to make it great so I don't want to show everyone that I started a blog and haven't done anything with it! Anyway, I need an outlet to express some of my feelings with our move and I think this just might work for me. I've been reluctant to share with my family how sad I've been and how much I am missing everyone. I've never been homesick before, but this time it is really hard for me. I love my parents so much and for the past two years, I have seen them multiple times a day and I think I'm just going through withdrawl. I keep telling myself that it takes time to make friends and that I have only been here a couple of weeks so I need more time to get adjusted to things, but it doesn't change the fact that it stinks to feel this way. I don't know if other people are really feeling like this because most of the people I know are younger than me and have less children and are not quite in the same stage of life as we are. That's hard for me too because even though I think I am being friendly and trying to meet people, there really isn't anyone that I'm hugely connecting with. There is one woman who moved here about 2 weeks before we did and we've been doing some things together, but that's about all we have in common is that we moved in at the same time. I shouldn't say that, we're both members and we both have degrees in English. She only has one child (not even a year old!) so our experiences are vastly different and she moved here from Salt Lake City! She is NOT what I would call a "Utah Mormon" so that's good but I'm just feeling a little lost here right now and wish there were some local people that I could connect with more. I guess I didn't realize how much I've put my own identity into where I'm from and how I live. I just keep telling myself, stay positive! Don't think about it and you'll get through it sooner! I don't know if that's true or not, but I sure hope so. That's it for now. It'll probably be another 6 months before I post again, and then it will still be just for me : )