Fear

Ok, so I haven't actually shared my blog with ANYONE because I'm a little scared of it so for now it's just for me. I don't really have the time to make it great so I don't want to show everyone that I started a blog and haven't done anything with it! Anyway, I need an outlet to express some of my feelings with our move and I think this just might work for me. I've been reluctant to share with my family how sad I've been and how much I am missing everyone. I've never been homesick before, but this time it is really hard for me. I love my parents so much and for the past two years, I have seen them multiple times a day and I think I'm just going through withdrawl. I keep telling myself that it takes time to make friends and that I have only been here a couple of weeks so I need more time to get adjusted to things, but it doesn't change the fact that it stinks to feel this way. I don't know if other people are really feeling like this because most of the people I know are younger than me and have less children and are not quite in the same stage of life as we are. That's hard for me too because even though I think I am being friendly and trying to meet people, there really isn't anyone that I'm hugely connecting with. There is one woman who moved here about 2 weeks before we did and we've been doing some things together, but that's about all we have in common is that we moved in at the same time. I shouldn't say that, we're both members and we both have degrees in English. She only has one child (not even a year old!) so our experiences are vastly different and she moved here from Salt Lake City! She is NOT what I would call a "Utah Mormon" so that's good but I'm just feeling a little lost here right now and wish there were some local people that I could connect with more. I guess I didn't realize how much I've put my own identity into where I'm from and how I live. I just keep telling myself, stay positive! Don't think about it and you'll get through it sooner! I don't know if that's true or not, but I sure hope so. That's it for now. It'll probably be another 6 months before I post again, and then it will still be just for me : )

Our Family August 08

This is our first family picture! We were so happy to finally get one done. (You'd think after 8 years of marriage, we'd have plenty!) I'm good with snapshots but not with more professional photos so we were so happy with how the pictures turned out.

I did it!

I've been contemplating starting a family blog and finally decided to just go ahead and do it! I didn't figure I would have enough time to manage it but it might help keep me sane these last few months of this pregnancy. I'm stir crazy from being inside all the time and since I babysit going out is often more work than what it is worth!